Cracks Beneath the Quiet

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Have you ever felt like no matter what you do, life just won’t go your way?
You try to work hard, you try to be a good person, you try to keep going—but somehow everything keeps falling apart. It’s like every time you build something, it crumbles right when you start to believe in it.

Love doesn’t work out.
Work feels like a dead end.
And life itself? It feels heavy. Like you’re stuck in a loop where nothing ever truly changes, no matter how much effort you put in.

It’s frustrating.
Not just because things aren’t going right—
But because you don’t even know why.
You’re doing everything you can.
Trying to hold it together, trying to stay strong.
But nothing seems to move forward.
And the worst part is not knowing what’s wrong,
or how to fix it.

Every night, I turn off the lights,
hoping maybe—just maybe—
I’ll fall asleep without thinking.
Without overthinking.
Without my mind dragging me through all the things I wish I could forget.
But I can’t.

Why is life so unfair?
Why must I always be the one witnessing someone else's happiness?
Why does that happiness never find its way to me?
Am I not worthy enough to receive it?
How many fears must I face, how many tears must I hide,
just to feel a little glimpse of happiness?

Dear God
Can I please have just a little happiness?
Not tomorrow, not someday—
but soon, very soon.
A small light to hold onto,
a brief moment to breathe,
a gentle break from this endless waiting.
Please—just a little happiness.

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